In the evening I enjoy reading a devotional- It has beautiful verses from the bible and then a brief explanation of the meaning of the verse. It is good BUT not good enough I need to get back into my bible and hear our Lord's words!
The truth is I have got a bad case of the "I wants"- it is spring and I want to redo/fix our landscaping, I want to buy the lot next to us so we have more space, I want to buy a basketball hoop, and I want to buy a swingset. It is not a good thing when the "I wants" sneak into my life. It is a red flag- and it tells me that I am going in the wrong direction. I need to take a giant step backwards, clear my thoughts, give my heart to God and get redirected through him. I actually feel like I need to ask forgiveness because his blessings are so great and I have not had a thankful heart.
The "I wants" get in the way of everything that is important. It causes me to not live in the present. It stops me from trusting God. I become more anxious and dissatisfied. It stops me from having a joyful heart.
It affects more than me- it sends the message to my dear husband that I am not satisfied with all that he has provided for us. It is not a good example for our children.
I have prayed to God, he has answered me but still I have doubted him. He has said over and over to me to trust him, to be at peace, to have a thankful heart. And then I let the world in- the "I wants" and "the doubts", I question his answers and I become fearful of the "what ifs".
Colossians 3:15
And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are all called to live in peace. And always be thankful.
Ephesians 6:23-24
May God give you peace, dear brothers and sisters, and love with faith, from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. May God's grace be upon you all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an indying love.
