Since we have adopted I have been asked that question a lot. I quickly check where the children are to make sure they are out of earshot and didn't hear it. I don't like that question because it alludes that the answer could possibly be no- that breaks my heart. However I tolerate that question for two reasons- I want to encourage others to adopt and I remember wondering that myself.
As we were having our birth children I remember how passionate I felt for them. I was prepared to protect them at all costs. I was a Momma bear and they where my cubs. I remember seeing other adoptive families and pondering the question "do they love their child as much as I love mine?" I never asked anyone but I did wonder. Over time I was able to see the answer- Of course they do! That dear child is a wonderful beautiful creation of God. Of course they love them every bit as much!
It was almost a relief to come to that reality. I couldn't imagine a child in a family and not having equal love and opportunity as their sibling. For me if freed me to have dreams come true, to add to our family as God guided us along in the path of adoption. I love seeing who will be joining us next!
Speaking of who will join us next- With all the chatter within the yahoo groups regarding contact with future adoptive children I want to be careful to do things the right way. To be honest I haven't followed the yahoo groups very closely because "surprise", we are busy. I have read a few posts here and there and do not want to take a chance at prolonging our wait in any way- it is already painful enough. Once you know who your children are you just want them home... now! We are hoping to get an update- through our agency sometime this month! I think we all have to be careful not to jeopardize China adoption in anyway! The children need us and well this Momma needs her children!!
I cannot believe how much Sarah is growing! I am putting away her clothes thinking that Emma and Ellie will be able to wear them BUT they too are probably growing! This should be one interesting closet they will have- Oh my, I think I have never had this situation- will some experienced Mom please tell me- should they share clothes or have their own? What n earth do you do if they want to all wear the same shirt and I don't happen to have 3 of them, just one?
I am thinking they will wear different sizes- I think... Sarah should be the biggest, Emma should be a size smaller and Ellie is the same size as Emma but she is broader built so they can share some things but she may need her own pant/shorts/skirts.
Have I shared with you that I am not really a very organized person! Sarah is organized. The other day she got frustrated with her underwear/sock and undershirt drawar- it is now perfectly organized! Our God sure knows what he is doing when he matches us up with our kids!!
Back to the LOVE! The answer is yes, yes, YES! Sometimes I feel like my heart could jump right out of my chest! I feel like "is this really true are these amazing children really MINE?" Oh how can this be- thank you, thank you, thank you JESUS!
