We have had a lovely time! The girls have enjoyed it and they will be a little shocked when we get back to our schedule.
Every time we go some place with them AND return with them our relationship grows. It is wonderful and at the same time very sad. I don't notice it until we come home and I wonder do they think we would leave them?? I don't know? I hope not but I think there is always that doubt in the back of their minds- especially Emma and Ellie.
A couple months ago I received reports from Ch*na and one of them spoke about when they were abandoned. The parents were separated and the girls were with Dad. The Mom had the younger sister living with her. One day they went to have dinner with their Mom. It was a nice big dinner and after that they went on a bus ride to the city...
I think I'm gonna throw up... I find it so upsetting. Can we ever undo what has been done? Honestly only by the grace of God can these children be healed of the pain from their past.
Ellie tells us that neither the birth Mom or the foster Mom liked Emma... How can children so young know that and understand that... heartbreaking...
When they were with their birth family- Emma was supposed to babysit the youngest child but she didn't do a good job and she hit the baby. If you know Emma, you will know that her cognitive/maturity level was probably similar to the baby's. This was something she was not capable of doing. She was probably about 4-5 yrs old at the time.
I wonder how the younger sister is doing?
We do not intent to look for her- God has not guided us in that direction and we feel that there may be many unresolved feelings regarding her - after all, in their (Emma and Ellie's) eyes she was the one they kept...
Right now we need to love the children the Lord has blessed us with and work to bring home those he has guided us too...
Whats wrong with this picture?
Oops- Ellie put on Anna's PJ's!
Okay, that looks much better!
